Brokenness

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Our first trip into the 9th ward was indescribable. We rode around different neighborhoods because we were early for our church service on Sunday (I’ll blog about that later!).

All 15 of us in our van were completely silent. I mean dead silence. We didn’t have anything to say. We were overwhelmed with what we were seeing.

Every house was empty; we could literally see through all the houses because they were all gutted and empty inside. However, the yards and porches were filled with left over belongings like teddy bears, lawn furniture, clothing etc.

It literally just looked like it happened two weeks ago. That’s unacceptable. I felt as if the hurricane just came through, tossed everything around, and the families weren’t back yet. I was hoping everyone was going to come back next week and clean up their homes, but then I remembered this happened almost three years ago and that probably wasn’t going to happen, ever.

There were large X’s on all the houses (pictured below) with numbers all around it. We later learned what they all meant. The date was on the top and the bottom number was the number of dead bodes found inside the home. It was very eerie when we passed one home that had a six on the bottom.

I didn’t cry while passing through the neighborhood because I think I was still processing everything (however, I did later in the week, which I’ll write about later).

We thought the area was deserted until we pulled up to Carver Desire Street Baptist, which believe me was full of life. I titled this entry brokenness because that’s exactly what I saw and that’s what the speaker of our nightly worship services spoke on…more on that later too. This isn't even the worst part, we did visit that area and that will come later.

Here are some pictures that we experienced:








Leaving on a Jet Plane...Don't Know When I'll Be Back Again

Monday, March 24, 2008


So I promised some good stuff from New Orleans…I journaled a little bit while I was there, just listing some things I saw around me. So I guess I’ll just go in order of some things I listed.

I never thought I would be like this, but I absolutely love to travel and discover new places. When I was a child and growing up I always loved being at home, just hanging with my family. I remember several times calling my parents while at a friend’s house for a sleepover claiming I was “sick.” When I entered the youth group at my church I started going on mission trips and traveling a little bit, but I was always really nervous when I stepped onto the van or plane.

This past summer I had an amazing opportunity to travel around Europe. Even as I entered the airport and kissed my parents goodbye, I remember thinking to myself, “why am I doing this? What was I thinking?” But then on my last night, I found myself wanting to stay because there was soooo much more I wanted to see.

Entering into New Orleans was amazing. As everyone else on our van talked with each other, I found myself glaring out the window trying to take a mental picture of every tree and every building that was different than what I’m used to.

I wanted to jump out of the van and run down every street (including Bourbon street, which I did, on St. Patrick’s Day—wow), try every restaurant, and go in every single shop.

I love unique places, which explains my love of historic downtowns; New Orleans; Florence, Italy; Amsterdam and even Beaufort. I love discovering and exploring these places. I hope I can continue to do so and stop being so nervous about taking that first step.

Now I know that once I do take that first audacious, courageous step, it’ll totally be worth it. But sometimes it’s hard, stressful, and nerve-racking…but I know the end prize is amazing and wonderful and I'll continue to chase after that.

**Pictured above is a blurry picture of the extremely long bridge ride into New Orleans**

What's to Come

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I just got back from New Orleans Thursday, I spent 6 days there doing different mission work with basically 14 strangers whom I absolutely love and miss now.

When I heard God speak to me about 10 different times within the first 24 hours we were in New Orleans, before we even started the actual work, I knew the trip was going to be amazing.

Needless to say, I could probably blog about New Orleans and what I learned from it for an entire year. So, that's what you'll be getting. I just want to share some of the things God showed me while I was there.

Tantalizing Totally Tite Terrific Tune Tuesday

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Go.

Song: Little House
Artist: The Fray
Album: How to Save a Life

First of all, the piano parts in this song are amazing: Beautiful and serene at the beginning and then to a tenser, anxious tone as the song progresses. Gorgeous.

I don’t even remember listening to this song when I first bought this album, but when I was driving back to Winthrop from home I stumbled across it, and I’m so glad I did! It’s a little more rock-sounding than the rest of the songs on the album, but you’ve got to listen to it! It will definitely move you.

It’s obviously about a girl who is struggling with something and she is trying to fix it all on her own:

She doesn't look, she doesn't see
Opens up for nobody
Figures out, she figures out

Narrow line, she can't decide
Everything short of suicide

Then the quietness of the song ends, and madness happens. It talks about something we maybe did in our past that we can’t let go, we just keep stumbling across it. I think we all have something like that:

Something is scratching it's way out
Something you want to forget about

Maybe we are the only one that knows about the particular situations:

A part of you that'll never show
You're the only one that'll ever know
Take it back when it all began

But, then when the chorus is repeated, it adds a few extra lines and the tone the singer uses really sounds like something scratching to get out, it really is brilliant:

Something is scratching it's way out
Something you want to forget about
No one expects you to get up
All on your own with no one around

Huh…I think they are implying that we are never alone, there is always someone to help us out with a problem and forgive us for what we’ve done. Maybe The Fray didn’t particularly mean God, but that is how I interpret it.

It’s a wonderful feeling that we don’t have to struggle our way through life alone, but instead God is there waiting for us to ask for help and guide us along. We don’t have to suffer and allow things to “scratch” inside of us.

I think this is my new favorite song (at least for this week). It’s short and to the point. Please click the above link and listen.

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Totally Tite Terrific Tune Tuesday

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Go.

Song: London Skies
Artist: Jamie Cullum
Album: Catching Tales (this blog was named after it!)

Again, one of my favorite artists: Jamie Cullum, who is British, is an amazing jazz pianist and the lyrics he comes up with are so poetic.

London is known for the rainy, cold, dreary days. Usually, these types of clouds and skies are seen as ugly and yucky.

But Jamie sees past the stereotyped ugly London, and sees the beauty in them.

Will you let me romanticize,
The beauty in our London Skies,
You know the sunlight always shines,
Behind the clouds of London Skies.

Jamie wants us to look beyond what is right in front of us. Looking past the gray clouds and seeing the beauty behind it. Jamie comes across as an optimistic guy and makes me realize I should look at things, whether I think they are ugly or bad or whatever, in a more positive light.

Nothing is certain except everything you know can change,
you worship the sun but now,
can you fall for the rain...

The only thing we know is that things change, so why not see the beauty in everything? I’m going to try and do that more often: appreciate God’s gifts to this world and thank Him for them.

I remember from watching the DVD that came with this CD, that this song was written for Jamie’s girlfriend. She lives in London and to him that makes the city even more beautiful. Romantic.

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